I'm a joker, I joke so often. I joke so often life became funny from inside this coffin. Life became a joke, trivial in its pursuit to make better my perceived reality. But that's all life is, your perceived reality. Life is a joke and you can laugh and laugh, some might laugh with you and some against. But don't forget the most important parts that lay inside this life Love, family and friends. Don't forget them. This is not a joke.
Tears cascade down my mascara stained cheeks As I scream into my already wet pillow Your name eases from my lips in a whisper The very contrast to all the memories whirling within Tornado like winds take over my mind Removing any other thought, or possibility- all thats left is you
Your memory teasing me with detailed images of your smile Something that was erased for so long I forgot it existed Dimples tugging at the corners of your thin pink lips As they framed your blinding white teeth, as straight as a picket fence All thanks to three years of pain and torture of metal That you whined about at every moment possible
But even when you whined, I couldn't take my attention away Hypnotized by the sunset gleaming in your ever changing colored eyes Reminding me that the world exists outside of your arms Though I never wanted it to, I wanted to stay To feel the warmth of the inside of that dreary black jacket As long are your arms were at home there too
Home took on a different meaning with you One that meant late summer nights with our minds among the stars On a barely exinsistant landing strip Dedicated as our towns sad excuse for an airport Never did we see a plane, though we hoped Sadly plotting that if we ever were so lucky it would show us the way out Into a world that we hardly knew because we were both here Stuck in a one horse town with people whose every name we knew
And then you were gone Swept away with the changing of the tides from fall to winter The seasons change without passing because my mind doesn't see My eyes only exist glazed over in long lost memories Days like death I would pray to forget if I ever thought that God did exist And early morning hours I wish I could remember
Where ever you are now I hope you know this Whether you're six feet below me or a thousand above Your name rings in my ears every second of every day Never forgetting the promises we made, or the games that we played Tricking each other into believing that forever did exist Never forgetting the times you made me laugh because you were stupid Or the kisses that I never could seem to resist no matter how mad I was
We were robbed by depression that gripped your soul It dug in its sharpened claws and snatched away the purest of hearts Within months that raced by like moments it drained you Like the longest of droughts drains the deepest of rivers Away went the days of love and sanity and in came the hurricane of hate Tearing apart everything that we had and throwing it a thousand feet away
Who knows where we would be now if you had managed to escape To find your way, even broken or damaged, back into the eyes of that Golden haired hero I could not tear my eyes away from Even when you were preoccupied across the room hidden from my sight I was fixated on you
Now that has translated into fixation of my brain Onto memories and horror and pain that I can't find any way to contain So I cry on nights like tonight when I can't get away The dam of a facade I apply with my makeup every day fades Into a twisted crumpled hurt of never understanding Why you're still always on my mind
Hazy dream like memories are crushed by the terrors of fights Then mended by the paintings of us on those late nights Broken and shattered by screams we both regret No matter what ever the flashback consists of It is running through my mind, chased out only by Shrieks into my soaked stained pillow And never drying eyes
Take my hand, I promise you, Everything will be okay.
Let's go, Leave it all behind, Because none of it matter's now.
Don't be scared, You have me, And i have you and that all we need.
Take my hand, And get ready for the adventure, Because there's no looking back now.
Let's go, Grab your passport, And forget about them.
Don't be scared, The nightmares will stop, I promise.
Take my hand, And never let go, Because i need you as much as you need me.
Let's go, Pack your suitcase, Our planes leaves in an hour.
Don't be scared, Look at me, I promise you, everything will be fine, i swear.
forget.
Author: summer
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Date: 04/04/2020
№ 1204658
I Will Not Forget
I don't have a good memory I may forget things about my past I may forget old memories
But I will never forget you I will not forget the way it felt when we touched And the sparks flew I will not forget the hugs And the safe feeling you gave me I will not forget the late nights And the deep talks I will not forget the phone calls And the confessions I will not forget how happy I was with you every day
But maybe I want to forget everything. It hurts remembering I want to forget it all
-H. R.
forget.
Author: Blurryface
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Date: 02/04/2020
№ 1204362
Forget me nots.
He falls from my thoughts like Autumn leaves from the trees; Dancing away on a bitter wind.
I survive the winter, easy to ignore bare branches Whispering of ghosts buried shallow In the cracked and frozen ground.
I continue; I forget to regret as The dark nights draw in Whilst I thaw out.
No fear of green here, nor of light Bringing colour to what I now Admit I have lost.
But, even so, as the earth twists on its axis Thought of him still will flower; Loathe to grow back as the sun shines.
I want you to haunt me when you die. I don't want to forget what it was like to be constantly tortured by you. I want to feel every bit of your existence even when you're long gone and my lips no longer remember yours.
