All of this is wrong I should have never fell I tried my best not to I swear I really did
I'm now looking for reasons to hate you I'm searching every corner, But every time I find something I fall for it
Nitpicking is useless and messy And I don't want to hate you I want you and only you Every cell and every atom of you
I'm trying to stand against the current Trying not to fall because of the waves and winds Because everything you said was so heavy And I'm trying to take it the best I can
heavy.
Author: Lorenzo IГ±igo Jimenez
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Date: 06/04/2020
№ 1209415
Heavy Darkness
She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness. She chokes on the blackness of the void And feels it sharper than the blade spilling blood on her skin His hands are ice around her neck Her eyes cry out for help She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness.
Never did she feel this way before This vulnerability struck fear in her A heart shredded by this monster This man she couldn't escape He watches her like prey She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness
She is sick but they won't see Hiding behind a smile She feels him watch her every move She is consumed by pain And yet, she loves him She is alone, drowning in her heavy darkness
Don't forget the burden, time weighing down your shoulders Every wasted moment, every breath that's getting shorter Grasping on to memories, as your hands are getting colder And you don't know how much longer You can bear this heavy load
The fires of your life have turned to smoke and ash The gentle winds of time, once slow, now are blowing fast Take in every sunset, as if it is your last Because you don't know how much longer You can bear this heavy load
The ravens of deception are cawing at your door Their evil shrieks of madness, through your mind, they slowly bore Until time and sanity are with you nevermore And you know you can no longer tolerate Such a heavy load
What part of me means so little To you? I mean, Why am I so forgettable? When you stay on my tongue like a blister. Every world I speak Drives the conversation back to you. Where my heartbeat crashes, I suffer a concussion, But you walk away just fine. Why? Why not? I mean, is that your motto? Something you say before you lose yet another tooth. Crash Boom Pow. There goes one down the drain. Same as my blood. Your future. Our relationship. How many nights has my memory haunted YOUR Dreams? 1 2 17 Does it take how old I am to return you back to Reality. Almost 20 years of neglect for you to give up on. Quitter. Why am I so angry? How many nights did I pray to anyone who would listen To get me out of there. But the second you let go of my hand, I fell flat on my face When I thought, When I thought I would walk just fine. Maybe even run. But it seems the only running I have been doing Is away from my guilt. I left him there to drown. His hand sticking out of the water Begging to pull me back under So maybe he wont die alone. Instead, I fell asleep in a clean bed. Full stomach, and heavy heart.
Lift that fingertip away from your scars And trace these ragged map-lines instead Here, here are better roads to take Than loneliness
So maybe your knuckle feels much too bare But know that our fingers are not made to sit waiting For a ring – They are built to hold
So hold – find another set of fingers Grasping for a stronger pair of hands There is nothing more beautiful than two small limbs Making a home in each other
Or better yet, when your bones feel Too big for his too-full arms and too brittle For the weight of your sadness Hold yourself together, never let go
When the night is too full of night To see the stars, take a mirror and try to Search for the starstuff in you
You. the point between history and tomorrow The most graceful of reckonings The steady hum of *more, more beneath cracking skin You. the sum of all things soft and true
And remember: those bones were never built to Shoulder the world They were only ever meant To carry you
