In the moment I felt empty Numb It was late I should've gone to bed But i didn't I had been thinking about it for a while It was always tickling the back of my mind Not letting me forget Reminding me The moment of feeling something Of feeling relief for a second And i did it I looked at the scissors And gilded them across my wrist Then there was shame And regret And anger That i went almost two months and threw it all away I didn't sleep that night I tossed and turned Then pretended everything was fine
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Author: Alex
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Date: 07/04/2020
№ 1208592
For a moment
For a moment, Just a moment There was a belch Of unwanted tenderness On which my body responded My thoughts were Still adherent to the dream Desire, floating As in the morning Beyond brightness.
You breathed. The Sun wiggled a little. You moved. There was a wobble In the path of the Moon. You smiled. My gravity shifted. You looked at me. Einstein held his breath... The Spheres paused, waiting... Eternity went to lunch... Waiting... Until you breathed and smiled at me again. I took in a small moment of air. Life.
Sometimes I feel like walking through an endless path... Confused and desperate. I wish I could go back in time... And reverse my mistakes. I wish I could move on... But there is no way out... I should just let time take over and heal these wounds...
Say hello To the moment Stretch out your hand And you say with an open heart What's in for us?
It replies Well--it's just you and me I am the stage You are the actor I can't even raise a finger Unless you make the first move There is no show without you I have no life nor delight Of my own
No philosopher am I Call me an ordinary bloke I didn't go to college (just an average student- Finished high school at 17 Poor family I came from Dad was an odd-jobs man) I held several jobs But disliked working for others Now a farmer With a helping wife (we have two kids--very young still- One boy and one girl- We adore them) We earn enough Decent living as the saying goes
I wake up early And hello to my farm I say I talk to the plants (they grow better As they understand what I say)
After harvest To the town I take my produce And then I say hello To the people who walk by And they say hello in reply These are great things You bring--I'll have these two Also that over there Hello- what a magnificent word Just the sound makes me happy And I am in the day's doing-show
To me Life is just saying hello I have an unwritten alliance With moments in time They are with me Wherever I am And wherever I go.
This was a Holy Moment. Every moment we have is holy, But this one was different. Every moment begs of us to see it, To see its glory, but this one, This one screams. This one cries out for life In all its sentiments. No painter could paint it, No singer could sing it, And even this poem Cannot do it justice. It was a Moment full of awe and power; Such power that one could not help but be drawn in.
This was a Holy Moment, And it was felt. The loss of a loved one I could not relate. Hard to write Are the intangible Moments we have. Love, fear, joy, and loss All have many meanings. I tried to compare, But I could not compare. I tried to imagine, But I did not have the capacity. I knew not this loss that was felt, But its presence was unmistakable.
This was a Holy Moment, And it crept up into each of us. It ate at our insides, trying to defeat us. It pulled and pulled at me, Trying to bring me to the depths of darkness. It numbed the body. I could not move, I could not think. I could only feel the Moment And it was terrible. My mind wanted to speak, but couldn't. I should have said something. But what could I have said? There is nothing for me to say. Any words would be just merely words. No words could have freed us of that Moment. No words could bring back life. No words could make it “alright”, For alright was another Moment; Another Moment far away from this one, A Moment not to be thought about, Because in this Moment we were.
This was a Holy Moment, And I was there. I was there and we were all there, There in that Moment. One of us was more than hurt, And we knew its true intensity Was something far out of reach, Far from our experience. Still, we shared this Moment. We shared it from start to end, Even though it had no end. Time could not grasp this Moment; It would not dare. Gathered in that Moment, We were bonded by the darkness. While she was alone in her thoughts, Our thoughts were with her.
This was a Holy Moment, And it was significant. It had something to say. Life has many Moments, Each with something to offer, To show, to tell, to teach. For it is in our lowest Moments That we can learn the most. It is in these Moments, That we learn to seize the day.
This was a Holy Moment, Opposing another Moment. It is the price we pay For eating the fruit, But it was worth it. I accept these Moments And all other Moments. May we grow from them And continue on our journey, For this was but a Moment.
Oh proud engineer of eternity Seam of reality Stitch of the universe Go forth
Cross those barren wastelands Composed of the flesh of your kin All of what was
Sail those tumultuous seas That lifeblood of Cronos, Father Time All of what is
And find yourself naturally to a shore For that shore is your shore Though the bank not of sand, But of finely woven threads
The threads of reality itself, A blossom of life amidst the swirling tides of time.
And you shall break onto that shore, A behemoth bred of circumstance, For you are this moment!
And with all the might of a whisper, A syllable and a heartbeat, A spike and dip of glorious emotion and sensation, Shall you impress yourself onto the fabric of life
And all at once release.
Recede with pride, Backwards through that sea, once spiteful, now docile Drift into that void what harbors all things once seen, And with peace, Await all that remains