I have been reading more. I have been tipping my waitresses more. Stopping on intersections to pet the passing canine. Attempting to watch what I eat. Having strong work ethic. Bumming a smoke. Paying the electric on time. Talk less about me, Let's hear more about your day. You, you, you. That should sidetrack the deafening of my thoughts. Throwing pennies into fountains, Tossing a dollar or two to the street performer. Seeking fulfillment. Not there, Not yet, Not happy, Not a ton. With this pattern I await a beacon. With this pattern I await direction.
Will you do me this one small favor Kiss the mirror on your way out So when my reflection cries It'll have something to remember you by Since you'll no longer be around
Could you wear that ruby red lipstick The color that always melted me So when my reflection walks by And that kiss catches my eye If not you, I'll have the memories
You breathed. The Sun wiggled a little. You moved. There was a wobble In the path of the Moon. You smiled. My gravity shifted. You looked at me. Einstein held his breath... The Spheres paused, waiting... Eternity went to lunch... Waiting... Until you breathed and smiled at me again. I took in a small moment of air. Life.
I know you still think about him. and I'm sorry to tell you that you still will. the color green will never be the same for you and you'll still flinch every time you hear his name. and I'm so sorry because he doesn't give a crap about you. no matter how many times you change your outfit in the morning for the slim chance he might remember your name.
He won't. he will never.
You're just another girl that's infatuated with him. you're just another victim. stop being a victim. he's not worth it. loving him is not worth it. love isn't supposed to hurt that much. I know we don't have that much experience in the love department but I know you're not supposed hate loving someone. you're so dumb for giving every part of yourself to him. didn't you realize there was nothing left. didn't you realize that you started to become a shadow of who you once were, but even that was fading. I know it hurts and it still does. you won't even bring yourself to say his name, so don't. because he is not worth it. he was a waste of time.
You deserve someone who will love you back and will actually remember your name. you deserve someone who will touch you without even putting his hands on you. you deserve someone who could take off your party dress and see the memories and heartaches and laughs laced into your skin along with the dreams and hopes. you deserve someone who's strips away all of the anger you have underneath your pores because that's all you really wanted to take off.
You smashed it all up Like you don't give a fuck After I built it back up No desire to clean up All the pieces so small Now I can't collect them all I have no clue what to do But sit here again with a fuck load of glue
Landscapes Easily overwhelm But with persistence Each is multitude Of relational smaller... Recognize and Watch it expand Fill the mind And universe...
