Poems about time

I just want slash and stab this empty vessel that I call a body
Rip out my guts and end it all
Choke on my own blood
And finish myself once and for all

It's been two months time and I fucking broke all over again
Because all I could hear was the sound of your laugh
And remember how you used to look at me like I was sunlight
AND HOLY SHIT I FUCKING BROKE ALL OVER AGAIN TONIGHT
MISSING YOU AGAIN HIT ME LIKE A FUCKING HURRICANE TONIGHT
IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS TIME AND I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOUR LIPS
IT'S BEEN TWO MONTHS TIME AND I STILL NEED YOU LIKE AIR
HOLY SHIT THE WIND WHISTLES YOUR NAME ALL THE TIME
AND EVERYONE I MEET MAKES ME MISS YOU
AND HOLY SHIT I FUCKING BROKE ALL OVER AGAIN TONIGHT
I'M STILL WEARING THE NECKLACE YOU BOUGHT ME
AND I FINALLY LEFT THE HOUSE HOPING I'D RUN INTO YOU SOMEWHERE
I FALL ASLEEP WISHING OTHER PEOPLE WERE YOU
AND HOLY SHIT IT HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK
I LOVE YOU
AND HOLY SHIT I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOUR GONE
IT STILL FEELS LIKE A BAD DREAM
AND HOLY SHIT I FUCKING BROKE ALL OVER AGAIN TONIGHT


(v. m)

Do you remember our first time, well my first time, and your millionth time?
I remember how scared I was and how you calmed me down. I thought this is it. I made the right decision by giving it up to you.
Do you remember walking out the door and never looking back? I remember feeling lost and broken.
I gave you something I could never give anyone else. I gave you a piece of me that I'll never get back.

There I stood, just stood, there
Maybe for a minute, but soon that
Minute past and shortly after that another
Minute past. Then a minute that seamed like
An hour but was only just a minute past then quickly
A minute that messed with my brains past
Past by, with a minute after that
Before i knew it a minute past

My back is so sore
From dragging along my burdened lungs
I pant and wheeze
Doing all i can to release
All the weight i can
But nothing ever seems
To work
My lungs tie themselves down
Forgetting the chains they have on my blood
So for each step
That my foot drops down
Each step
That i nearly drop these lungs
Let them sink
And go
I nearly drop myself
And drown

I don't ever want to forget
How rough your hands were
Yet how softly they touched me

But i do want to forget
How lost i feel without
Your soft touch

I don't ever want to forget
How bright your eyes were
And how they locked with mine

But i do want to forget
How dull mine became
When i got on that plane

I don't ever want to forget
The way you lifted me up
And kissed me for the last time

But i do want to forget
The lack of you in
Every other kiss.

S. W

They told me to listen to what my heart says and my fingers will translate from there.

I went back
To him
To 6th grade
Back to 8 years
Of anticipation

To his dimples
His hazel green eyes and
And I was going to stay on the couch but
When his hands
Melted to my skin
They felt like home.

There we were
My clothes
Falling off
My bones
And the goosebumps
Dancing
On our skin

The moonlight pouring
Through the blinds
Spilling onto us
Like milk.

I told him I wasn't ready
But he said
8 years
And I've never looked better
For anyone

Our eyes
They wrote books
To one another
And told our story
Wrote
Our story
And slowly
Turned
The pages

As our
Bodies distributed the ink.

Dipping
And carefully writing
History onto each
Others bones,
Into each
Others bodies

I am stained forever
With your ink.

The hands have moved.
The sun is up and down.
Stars shift.
Tides advance and recede.
Trees add rings.
Winter over. Spring here.
The oven is pre-heated.
The oil change is due.
But time with you
Is immeasureable.