Poems about understand

Why did you die?
Why did you make me cry?
Why is your blood splattered on the wall?
Why wont you hear me when I call?

My last breath was taken from me
Yet it was you who was the one who died
You were a part of my destiny
Your heart and mine were entwined.

You were my life
You and me were one
I'm broken and defeated
Now that your gone.

I will never understand your suicide
As i stand in the bathroom where you died
And when i said I'm okay i know i lied
And this I'll prove as i take this cyanide

Nausher

Everyday i die a little inside
Everyday i put a smile on my face
Waiting for the chance when i don't have to pretend.

That chance is that special day
Once a month, or one in three weeks
That day specially marked for you.

This is the day when i can just let everything loose.
The day when i NEVER have to pretend
Because i'm with my best friend.

Everything is bottled up inside me
Waiting
Waiting.

It explodes the day before
When you say you can't come.
When i realize that i can't take this mask off.

I just need someone to trust
But there's nobody
Just you and only you.
My best friend in the entire world.

I miss you
I need you
Can't you just listen?

I just want to be done already.
You don't understand what it's like...what its like to wake up from nightmares just to continue living them while you're awake. You don't understand the endless conversations I have with myself, making it unbearable to sustain myself. You don't understand...how many times I think about killing myself each day. I wish you could understand how hot my tears are when they roll down my cheeks and how much it stings. Please understand that I'm hurting and I just need you more then ever

Today
Driving my vehicle
Whether Red or green signal
We always
Trying to hold a place
On the road till we reach...
Even
In love
We are placed
In the heart of beloved
A place till she switch
From love... Red
To shut us out
By changing into green...

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A thousand words
A million feelings
Turning back from reality
Leaning on imagination

Learning about love
Evaporating in heart
Entering the imagination world
Trying to understand

It's like holding to a cactus
It hurts but curiosity overwhelmed
Metamorphosis basis
It is stated but difficult to be understood

Looking for the truth
Wind-whirl crushing to knock the truth
Looking for the love
Big enough to understand what it feels.

I never understand the beauty they see when they look at me. I mean whats beautiful about the aftermath of war...
I can understand manufactured beauty that comes at the cost of a paintbrush... some expensive lipstick... that type of illusion that will make them look twice.

What I don't understand is when you tell me that I am beautiful at random times or when you text me to ask how my day is going... I dont understand how you can think of me when I cant think of me... I dont understand when you tell me you love me... Who could love such a mess???

I dont understand how you take 10 steps forward when I am always backing away 10 times more... I dont understand what you see that my mirror hasnt showed me... Last time I checked demons dont love and I am sure there is no shade better than black... I just dont understand.