Used to be something intelligible, Now my voice is a quiet siren. Trying desperately To get the point across With this silent movie, Bury me with my thoughts. I said I would not, You said I had a job. Now I fret when I'm lost, I caught myself slipping. There isn't anything I can do Except just sit here and witness.
I'm an artist, a starving artist. The paint doesn't dry And my songs don't play, My dreams don't fly And my words don't make it. Half my deepest thoughts Get lost in the deep. When we fight, we cry And we sit all alone Trying to see something That isn't there. Was it ever there?
Were you ever here? Did I ever smile? Was I in fear? And every time We turn a year I dream of those Times as a child. Knowing things Makes you wish You didn't know a single thing. I never wanted to know, I just wanted a feel.
You could have sliced my skin. Peeled it back and eaten my heart. Raw. You could have shattered my bones. Until each one cracked in half. Snap. You could have voiced your distaste. Called me every name in the book. Poison.
Coming out from the water And into the light Breathing heavy Then smoothly I come out of the fight
Time sucks in my waterfall And time tips over the filth (and lies) And storms come over to break the rules And expectations and strike its lightning with force And disgusting tests and trials Set fire to the trails to send out a message SAVE OUR SOULS
Perhaps I would No longer would I love the invisible taste of Broken walls And I come up from the water one more time Breathing heavily, Then smoothly as I come to shore (who will rescue me? ) I think I've find the answer but it's still buried deep In the sand
"don't complain" I understand, I won't, I won't I won't I won't I won't
II
No one's going to respond I think I can feel the wind pushing me back To make me spiral back into the void
Fuck the void Got everything I need right here Packed bags and held up Burnt chapters from years ago
How did they detect this? Got out of here alive Which might be an understatement Blasted out
(walking on the sand digging killing Eating dying trying flying in my mind) You gotta know The wind's blowing me back Into the void Invincible so I just have To avoid it Until I've come full circle (the whole island's a circle) But who cares The birds are coming down From the town That isn't there (grow up) I already have Still got a lot to do Lots of doors to open But come on The wind is blowing me back into the void But it doesn't matter much
III Life's an abrupt ending Starvation on the beach with no way home The wind can take me back home Since I just needed to wake up All I ever needed to do Wake up I'll I ever needed to do Wake up Hold on Wake up Got something stuck right here It could be gone I think it's looking up from here Blazing fires fuel my eyes I'm just back in the water Doesn't matter Never has I have this Wake up I'veneverwantedwhatineverwantedionlywantedwhatiwanted Life's abrupt "grow up" I already have
Bye
wanted.
Author: Sayer
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Date: 05/04/2020
№ 1207713
If i wanted to jump
Why is it, when I like someone I'd give them my all
I'd give them my heart If theirs was missing
I'd give up my lungs If they stopped breathing
I'll do what you need Whatever it is
Bit stop! Would you do the same?
Would you give me your hand If I wanted to Jump?
Would you step out in the rain Just to save me?
When I look in your eyes I think you want to
But when I watch your actions I know you're scared
The one thing that I've wanted Eludes me to this day I drive around just looking With nothing much to say The ones that have it, earned it While the others, we just pray For the one thing that we wanted But eludes us to this day
~Aye, the one thing that we wanted, but eludes us to this day!
Well you take the road to riches And bloody well you may Find the path that intersects it When your greed gets in the way And blindly turn aside When all the beggars plead, "Oi Vey'! You've got the one thing that they've wanted But eludes them to this day
~Aye, the one thing that they've wanted but eludes them to this day!
While I wait around just hoping That my wages serve me well And try to keep the heat down While the gas bill goes to hell Not the thing I really needed But the one that keeps me warm It's my thermal underwear~ And all that's clinging to my form
~Aye, her thermal underwear is all that's clingin' to her form!
I pull myself together In the early morning light And layer on and layer up 'cause this has been my plight The news guy says it's snowing and Long Island's in a freeze, Geez The last thing that I needed And it's right up to my knees
~Aye, the LAST thing that she needed and it's right up to her knees!
So I'll boil a pot of water And I'll fill me up a tub And I'll soak my father's daughter Till there's nothin' left to scrub And when I'm toasty warm and ready Then I'll climb back in the bed Close my eyes and dream of summer And the one thing in my head
~Close her eyes and dream of summer and the one thing in her head! It's the one thing that I've wanted, but forever left unsaid.
Maybe it's good that we have never met So i don't have to face the fact That you're not mine, you never were My heart made me feel so absurd You left me longing for you As i did so, i fell on the ground All messed up, in the dirt All because i Wanted you To love me too
Are they blind? Are they oblivious to the screams and desires of that girl on Rosendo Lane? Are they so arrogant & self-absorbed that they can't tend to her bleeding wrists? Do they not feel her blood drip upon their heads? Do they not feel the tears that fall from the eyes of that girl on Rosendo Lane? That girl who's voice is lower than the hum of hummingbird's song That girl who smiles But underneath there's a war A war that's bigger than you and I And in the midst of that war is a girl picking blood covered daisies with An unfeigned smile laying upon her bright face That girl was once the girl that lives on Rosendo Lane That girl just waits for the war to be over She dodges knives and guns While her host cries and doesn't have the willpower to let the knives and guns drop Within her
