He was beautiful but way too young for me. I should have just walked away. But God is no so kind to divorced women Close to the age of forty with a Lot of dissolutionment with modern urban life. My husband cheated on me With his secretary. Tell me you haven't Heard that before.
I met him at a family get together. A BBQ with awful food And cheap wine. It was his youth I think It glowed like freedom. So full of life. All the emotions yet to happen. Not all those that had already been. He dumped his girlfriend When he saw me. I don't for the life of me know why. She was pretty and perky And so very young. Not like me at all.
He caught me looking at him But I did not release my gaze. That was cruel he was a just a boy I found out later he was Twenty two He gave me all I needed at that time. All the things my rat bastard husband Had never given to me.
I admit I used him for his beauty And his life that shone from him. But I did not know I was falling in love with him. He undressed. me with his eyes ond smile. I could not wait to undress for him. My mother always so wise Said let him go honey it will end badly. But I didn't. He moved in to my urban nest. The few hundred square feet That was all mine Where the outside world ended. After a while I was miffed he did not have a job like I did. That he sat around playing Nintendo all day. But then he kissed me And said I love you baby. And I melted for him.
I got angry when he was drinking beer With his friends In my apartment. When i got home from a hard day at work. And I threw him out.
I told him he was never going to be what I needed he was too young. He moved into his buddy's place. And called nme ten times a night. Then I saw him again It was in the local delli I moved a can of caviar And he was buying steaks On the other side.
I took him home to my place Undressed as usual He would not wear his condom. He said I want you to have our baby. I froze like a deer in the headlights. I wish he had just fucked me. All of a sudden I saw his vulnerability His youth his inexperience. He was a baby and I was playing with him. I knew it was a trap for him. A trap I could not set. So I opened the cage The door left wide open. And he flew out into The wild rarified air Above the mountains.
I saw him again about a year later. I was drinking wine at my favorite restraunt with a group Of my friends. It was near the holidays The cold new York frost had formed on the window. His breath melted a small section Our eyes met and he he flashed his beautiful smile. I caught my breath and my heart beat quickly... But then he turned away. And walked into the icy winter cold of the old city Which had seen many such love stories before.
There was a Young Lady of Troy, Whom several large flies did annoy; Some she killed with a thump, Some she drowned at the pump, And some she took with her to Troy.
You say, The waterfall turns bright green when enlightened By a single tear that whisp away in the ambience of what The future could bring, but don't go chasing it, You say, When you walk you feel the spirits crumble beneath your feet And dissolve into dust, you were never good with trust, Plus you're antisocial, I am too so thats a plus, As well as, your fascination with roots, To ground they lie, plants never tell the truth, doing good For peoples stomachs and tummys laying down cognition, In this position, cris cross, Apple sauce, The taste is so familiar just be glad it's not exhaust, Winds blow clean Through these trees, Are you gonna say anything else? Or have said enough?
Sail, I sail on a flowing river Where this will take me, I wonder Folks think I am naive and young Like spring blossoms not yet sprung
Sail, I sail on running streams Trying to fulfill my dreams: Of living somewhere I belong, And be the one who is wise and strong
Sail, I sail and see two waterways Shall I go through this one which might take days? This side of water rushes real fast With those rocks, making it harder to be passed
Sail, I sail and see the river divides One of them has those calm tides Besides its tranquil surface There is also no need to race
Sail, I sail with adventurous mind to the first As I know this cannot be reversed Call me ignorant, foolish, young With high hopes, I shall soon be sprung!
There's a young lady on the other riverside, She's wearing night clothes And a bright smile. She was what I had, The Love apart my breath. But she was on that same place that tomorrow night. I never knew it was her that lady behind... She drowned in the river of the love, Leaving myself crying on the floor. Never saying me goodbye, leaving me a smile.
